Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Insecure Writers—In Search Of Discipline

Discipline: prescribed conduct or pattern of behavior
Prescribed: to lay down as a guide, direction, or rule of action

I’m in dire need of a new prescription for discipline.

Unfortunately, this is not the sort of prescription I can go to the pharmacy to get. It’s something I have to pull out of myself and follow. I used to be so disciplined with my writing. I had a schedule that worked for me. Somewhere along the line, I lost it.

There have been some major changes in my life that have altered my time. A time intensive blog, home schooling my son, and dealing with a serious illness have all made inroads on writing. Dealing with one and two were doable, add three and poof, writing? What’s writing?

I still have to deal with the blog (which I enjoy) and home schooling (which is done in two months), but the illness knocked me down below the speed bump and it’s a bitch to crawl back up from that one.

NaNo helped. It tapped back into my imagination and reassured me it’s still working—trust me, I had some serious doubts on that score for a while. It was hard to think beyond basics. I didn’t have the energy or inclination (not to mention enthusiasm) to write when it was all I could do teach the kid and do the blog. In between I took my meds and slept—a lot. 

I’m not totally well but I’m getting there and now I’m desperately in search of disciple. Part of it is finding the motivation (and energy) to write intensively again. That’s a hard one. Then there are all the things in the house I had to let slide when I was so sick. Now it’s learning to pace myself. Balance is so important for me. I don’t do well without it but it takes patience to get life balanced when it’s been out of sync for so long and your focus is on the necessities.

Since I do my best writing in the mornings, I’m going to have to schedule time for just writing and then tackle my to do list, find time to nap (which is still very necessary), check the kid’s school work, and work on the blog. It’s getting there. Kinda.

Bottom line for me, if I don’t make the time, then my time gets squandered away and nothing is accomplished.  I don’t like that feeling.  I also need to be consistent.  Most successful writers have to be.

  • How do you carve out time to write?  Some work full time.  Some can’t write at home but have a favorite place they can write.  Some can only write on weekends, or early morning before the day starts, or late at night when the house is quiet.  The point is they have to make the time. 

  • So, what works for you?




Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Glad you are doing better, Sia!
I need to block out time. I haven't written in a while and need to force myself back into the habit. Even if it's crap, I have to start somewhere.
Here's hoping we both get into the habit.

~Sia McKye~ said...

Forcing is a good word choice, Alex. That's what I have to do. Once I'm sitting there with the document open and write. It's just a matter of making myself open the document.Not easy when you're tired or brain fried.

Joanne Kennedy said...

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better! As you know, I went through a similar challenge recently. One thing I discovered was that being unable to work long hours at the keybaord taught me to be more efficient when I could finally write again. I learned to focus better and make the most of my time. I'm getting more done in less time, and that helps me balance my life by spending more time with family and friends. Everything happens for a reason. I guess I had a lesson to learn:)

~Sia McKye~ said...

Thank you Joanne.

Can't we just say we learned the lesson and not have to go through the crap, too?

Jowake said...

Sia, don't push yourself too hard. Getting over an illness isn't easy and feeling tired and lethargic is part of the recovery period so don't kick yourself for not being too enthusiastic about anything at the moment, it will come back. Take it easy girl. Pity I don't live nearby, I'd make you some chicken soup, LOL.

~Sia McKye~ said...

Jo, you're such a sweetheart. And I'd take that chicken soup in a heartbeat.

Honestly, I'm trying not to push myself and yes, it's hard. I'm still not out the woods, just made it through the thickest part of the forest. I'll be happy dancing when I make out of the woods and into the meadow (remission).

You make a good point about not kicking yourself for not being too enthusiastic about anything at the moment. I forget that part and I do tend to think, Slacker, what's wrong with you?

So thank you for the reminder. :-)